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Friday, August 18, 2006
- Friday, August 18, 2006
18 August 2006
If you have a chance to see this blog i updated on certain days.. (to sum1) i want to tell you, i am sorry i lied to you.. you shld noe who u are.. i don't even noe why i am lying to you all these while.. but jus to tell you that, if u really angry with me,think i am very ridiculous,please stop wasting ur time on me.. i dun wish to disappoint u at the very end. i believe you have other girls in mind right..? if u have anythin to this post i updated, jus sms me. but i wun reply.. i feel too guilty.. =(
I made too many sins... i know *Lord will forgive me, but i cannot even forgive myself.. Another one, i am habing a cold-war with my friend.. she changed a lot.. too much.. too obvious.. its no use hiding,i can tell.. not only me, everyone can tell.. its jus too FrEaKIN fake.. all the things u do shows, the way u FrEaKIN speak.. dun complain, i tell u first,dun complain abt how ppl treat u.. ThINK abt the way U treaT ppl.. or izzit.. i am the one who changed?? last but not least, a girl in my class,who appear like how she is now, is not what she is.. those who noe who, jus noe it.. i can say shes can be a great actress... ;)
I seriously need some relAXAtION...! swim is all i can think abt now.. swimming continuosly.. i really.. really missed those friends back in primary school.. i need them.. without them, everythin we went through together wouldnt make me for wad i am nOW.. They changed me, my world, my attITUdE.. i could have been a very bad girl now.. i am struggling inside my heart.. though some things, can never change.. not at aLL.. I am akways trying to control myself not to do things i'm not suppose to do, but i cannot control myself when that situation appears right before my eyes.. and whenever i tries to do something bad on purpose when sum1 does that to me, i didnt have the heart.. wHO AM I.. WhAT AM I..
Theres very fEW ppl i can go too now.. i guess, ppl jus changes within time.. that i cannot change.. l0lx.. y am i talkin abt this cRaPPY sHIT.. l0lx.. if not i got nothin else to talk abt liao... ONe thING, *I LIES tOO muCH*
Comf0rt and m0ney is n0t everything to me. FreEDOM is..
[Friday,8.30p.m.]
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
- Saturday, August 12, 2006
12 August 2006
Heh... Today quite happy.. got go church with Joel Cheang and his friends. i got to noe Ting Ting too.. Wow, shes a great girl i can say.. actually, many of them dere are too.. heh.. There was many singing and jumping and some funny topics spoken by Pastor Jeff.. Too bad i dont really noe much of the ppl there well.. if not i am gonna enjoy it a lot. its my first time ya noe..hehe..
Today go Regent Grove swimmming oso... met my kor and *some1*.. my stupid kor go hit my head for nothing.. l0lx.. but he quite farni la.. sec 2.. quite handsome la.. but too bad got gf.. if not every girls ask me for his hp le..!!! HAHA.. jokin... =.=''' pain sia... he say next time pinch my face... ! ...
Nearly forgot abt my history project.. Die sia.. but lucky i got think abt how to do it le then still got 7 more days... WORSE OF ALL IS MY DNT!!! freak le..( i substitude f**k with freak) 2nd batch cause got no time must rush... sianz... teacher very wad lo.. everytime oso demerit.. freak... now still got hmk that my friend took abt 6 HRS TO FINISH!!! FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tomorrow must pass up liao.. still need to do sumthin using the wadeva plastic.. sianz...
Patience Is The Key To One's Heart.. ---> AS IF!!!
[Saturday,9.58p.m].
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
- Tuesday, August 08, 2006
8 August 2006
WAhhs... sry guys... sh0 long neber update.... ><><
*imagines*
today oso worth it falling down playing basketball.. i cant believe i shoo long neber play le still can win the match against the rest... i admit my skills quite good.. hahass!! j0kin la.. not as good as basketball girls .. i only good in shooting.. *i guess..* i forgot tomorrow go out go put one whole patch of purple medicine on my injury.. T.T it wun be off for days... AHHHHHH!!!! T.T aiya.. i dun care le.. can go out then good le... heh...
ND ceremony today oso quite fun... i tot it will be very boring.. hahass.. miiss sum1 s0 much.. l0lx... eh// i noe my blog very boring de lahhs... jus see updates only.. l0lx.. next time i more pro i go make nice nice de bl0g.. heh... *kiiddin*.. i really love to laugh a lot eh?
Laughter is the Best Medicine
[Tuesday,8.11p.m.]
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Thursday, July 06, 2006
- Thursday, July 06, 2006
6 July 2006
Sian la... anyh0w sae i liike Jonathan.. kiiies la.. i forever dun talk or sms to him happy?!.. forget abt it.. wadeva i sae u guys wun listen.. nbms... Today table tennis lucky not scolded by coach.. haish.. felt so relaxed.. feel so stupid... get involed in such things... haish..
*if only... if only things went back to when i first came in to sec school... and i can change everything that happend... if only.. if only, i'm the ugliest girl in the world.. then no one wold ever liike me.. how i wish.. i've neber met any1 at all...
if only the ppl i want them to see my blog entries will see them now...
If only the tiime can chang3..
[Thursday,7.55p.m.]
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Monday, July 03, 2006
- Monday, July 03, 2006
3 July 2006
Today's the day,where i'm feeling so bored... but at least i leveled up in maple to lvl 35.. ^.^ maybe a bit happy.. heh.. not much to say really... D&T hmk must be rushed by the teacher cause less than half months only... sian... so much to do... but i'm aiming for 3 A1s for my CA2.. i must do it... though its only for either english, maths, chinese, science and history. i'm aiming for english, chinese and history..
*imagines*
how happy i will be if i really achieved that.. my ex-tuition teacher tells me that.. he's really a great tuition teacher.. he helped me a lot.. he gave me goals.. which i might not have for maybe the past few years?
**imagines even more** wad if i get A1 for english in my 'O' levels.. i will jus throw away the paper and scream like mad n pick it up again.. haha.. >< english is the most important.. that is my goal, for the next 3 years.. i wanna get a degree and then migrate to austrailia... haha..
*stops imagining*..
i have to study hard to achieve wad i want... =)
Wisdom from Lord, is the only key to open my heart n soul..
[Monday,4.09pm]
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Sunday, July 02, 2006
- Sunday, July 02, 2006
2 July 2006
The Days Of Hatred.. Dun tr3at me like a f00l.. u know wh0 u are.. dun treat me like i'm a puppet.. i hate it.. i wont sae out ur names.. cause i dun wanna make ya embarrassed.. jus know.. one day.. u guys will regret... regret.. REGRET! Dun treat m3 like your friend anymore.. i dont wanna have anythin to do wif u.. especially.... hyp0crYYTES!!
**** i hate you.. dun act like ur kind.. i knw ur true heart... i can tell thru ur actions.. thru everythin u does.. not only actions.. words.. i'm not like a f00l u think.. ur the f00l.. dun think i'm insane. ur the one whos insane.. i dont want anyone to pity me saeing i have no friiends... i have... and they the one and only ones... if u dont know that u are a hypocryyte after wad i wrote.. never mind.. but.. u will foreva be one..
i will never forgive u
[Sunday,2.21pm]
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Friday, June 30, 2006
- Friday, June 30, 2006
31 July 2006
Oh man.. since a loing time i've updated my blog.. i've did badly in the past 6 months in m y exams.. my tuition teacher gave me a target.. 3 A1s... i want to prove to everyone, i can do it! but the problem ish.. seems like i always get used to being tired and sleepy after studying for a while.. i just cant help it.. i really wanna do well for my exams.. i am willing to pay the price.. hard work i noe.. i will do it.. i will.. haish.. cca oso very sianz.. coach keep scolding me.. but i wont blame him.. cause everyone need to buck up for the competition next year.. if we dont,everythin will go down the drain.. all the efforts put in in the past will be gone.. i dont wish for that to happen.. Lord,i know you will help me. I know you've always been by my side, for i can feel your presence.. and you telling me inside my heart what is right what is wrong.. u've been consoling me all the while.. i would have gone mad without u.. Thank you.. i'm gonna have swimming lessons for 10 times! wonder how tanned i will be by that time.. i've been avoiding reality.. theres too much things i am so afraid of.. hurting ppl.. hurting myself.. i jus dont face the reality.. Lord, forgive me..
U put in effort,u get your reward..
[Friday, 8.37pm]
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